Mayor Rob Ford of Toronto is Us

ocean1Your probably reading the title of this post and thinking, no way, that is not me!!!  But I am here to say, yes it is you.

I’ve been watching the downward spiral of Toronto mayor Rob Ford’s career since the crack pipe debacle last summer (FYI – here is an article explaining such; http://www.cbc.ca/news/canada/toronto/rob-ford-crack-scandal-the-lingering-questions-1.2416903 ), and one thing is for certain he exhibits the classic behaviors of an addict; one behavior most specifically, the response of “denial”.  Deny, deny, then deny again and when you have something your trying to gain or people your trying to manipulate, then admit your guilt!

The classic behavior of an addict;  we want what we want and we don’t want anything to get between us and our chosen poison.  The drug, the lifestyle, the material goods, the SUV car, the food, the electronic devices, the sex, the power, the greed, even the false peace of mind, the list goes on…  We want to fill that craving and we don’t care what gets in the way or what harm our addictions may cause.

I have been reading lately about how the brain is wired to create electronic pathways to enable us to think quicker; its part of the way we learn and it is fundamental in how we form habits. In the darker sense its how addictions are created, why we stay there; and why we relapse when we are trying to kick our habit or addictions.  The road to self ruin really is a road inside our brains.  If we are engaged in something habit forming even in the very early stages of that habit our brain is wired to help us continue and keep the habit going.  It is difficult and painful to rewire our brains because there is a concentrated emotional slag heap in our unconscious that keeps the addiction going.  It hurts to take your head out of the sand and say hey, somethings just not right here.

Here is my point and I do have one.  I believe humanity as a whole is in a cycle of addictive behavior, and we are in great denial (at our own peril) about how serious the end result of our addiction is because we want to be comfortable and not give up our goodies.

We are in a cycle of planetary energy according to Astrologers where Neptune (the planet of illusion, spirituality and creativity) is transiting through Pisces; it will remain there until 2025.  Many spiritual people the world over today and from the past heralded this epoch as a time when humanity would reach great spiritual heights, love, world peace, etc.  Transiting planets, energy shifts; all have a dark side and a light side of manifestation.  The astrologer and author Stephen Forest spoke at a conference I watched on YouTube describing this time as it was approaching; he believed the opposite would be true, that world-wide we would be seeing people succumbing to addictive lifestyles on an even grander scale than ever seen before.  One of the messages that I have received from spirit over the past two years repeatedly is that humanity is nowhere near where we are supposed to be spiritually to absorb and learn from this new energy on planet Earth.

With all this kafuffal about the Toronto’s Mayor Rob Ford smoking crack, the finger pointing, the embarrassment, the omg, the public lynching, (not that he shouldn’t be held responsible and accountable).  We cry, “Not me!”  “I don’t do that.”  What’s going on in our back yards or growing in the darkest basement of our repressed shadow, or gathering mold in our closets. How responsible and accountable are we about the mess we are leaving the planet in, for the generations after us.  Do we care?

Its interesting that Neptune rules the ocean. Our oceans are dying.  We originate from the ocean.  In October this year an article was published in the Guardian newspaper; in the article is an analysis of scientific findings regarding the acidification of our oceans; a process happening at an alarming rate leading to massive die offs of all ocean species in the next forty years or less… I quote, “The next mass extinction may have already begun.”  http://www.theguardian.com/environment/2013/oct/03/ocean-acidification-carbon-dioxide-emissions-levels

The article is grim in the extreme and I am sure its trying to paint a rosy picture in order not to create widespread panic; again, denial.  The only reason I can see that humanity as a species would sit back and allow this to happen (because the information is out there folks we all have known about this for a long time now) is we want to be in our world of comforts, and our brains are wired to get all this stuff to us as easily and quickly as possible. Denial is also a sign of mental illness.

Who is going to be held accountable for mass extinction in the oceans, its not going to be the corporations people, its us who allowed it to happen.  We are addicted to the goods that are produced by these companies and they know it.  What are you going to say to your maker (or your children) when you one day have to face him or her.  I didn’t do anything to make my planet a better place, I participated in the madness.

©  Lorraine Hughes 2013

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The Beginning of the Universe

IMG_20130616_162914I’ve been wanting to write an article about the collision between science and spirituality for some time now especially since scientific findings from the Large Hadron Collider have been published in recent years. The collider or atom smasher has been operational since 2008.  If you google large hadron collider you will find information on the engineering specs, number of top people in their fields involved and how impressive this scientific endeavor involving numerous countries and costing 7.5 billion euros (I want you to stop for a moment and think about how much money that is).  Basically a machine which has scientifically reproduced the subatomic conditions at the time of the big bang; or beginning of the universe itself.

The published findings are even more interesting because they have now proven what was theoretically thought of prior; that multiple dimensions exist as well as our own, that we are connected to every living thing on the planet and everything is connected to us and lastly the idea I find most interesting that matter has intelligence and is conscious.  Basically you have scientific proof of what great yogis, seers, soothsayers and mystics have been saying since time began.  Oh yeah here is another one, time does not exist; specifically in other dimensions.

These ideas are the framework or workspace of my office everyday.  It has been my experience to have material objects disappear and reappear; or material objects appear out of thin air and remain in my possession; clouds of vapor appear and disappear inside my dwelling (Jerry my partner has also seen this with me or around me; he has seen faces in the vapor peering at him from around me); telepathic communication occurs on a regular basis between us (proving intelligence in matter and the awareness of cellular of connection); once I was sitting in a restaurant and a strong perfume filled the restaurant from behind me (three people approached me and asked me how I was manifesting the perfume) obviously it came from somewhere else.  This is just a very small number of the phenomena that happens in my world and others who are like me.  I feel sorry for people that need scientific validation for every circumstance happening on this planet.  I think its a miracle to watch a flower bud; how it take its time to share its inner beauty and fragrance with us mere mortals.

Science and scientific endeavors when it becomes the rational mind gone mad, when it needs to name and dissect every living thing in existence down to the smallest particle known to man/womankind including what was going on at the dawn of creation, takes the mystery and creativity out of life and renders it lifeless.  There is a place and job for the rational mind and that is for solving a problem that is in front of us, like cleaning and preserving our dwindling fresh water supply; doing something about the disappearing wild places and protecting the disappearing animals species that live within them; organic farming and food for everyone on the planet.  Think of the positive change that could be accomplished with 7.5 billion euros, at this very critical turning point in our development on our beautiful planet Earth.

Here is a little food for thought for you.  Edgar Cayce was a famous seer who while in trance made uncanny predictions about the past and future which have come to be proven in our time.  One of the epochs he spoke about was the existence of a place called Atlantis which sunk into the sea because of the misuse of technology.  According to the great physicist Stephen Hawkin the phenomena that was in existence right at the moment of creation was a black hole. This is a state where matter turns in on itself.  These are the conditions that the large hadron collider is trying to reproduce.  If everything is connected and matter is alive then the experiments being done on the Swiss-Franco border 175 meters below the Earth’s surface are not contained inside the collider but are in fact interacting with the energy of the outer and inner planet and all of life as well.  I find it interesting that with increasing frequency in recent years, enormous sinkholes have been appearing all over the planet, especially in north and south America with science not able to give a clear and united explanation for the phenomena.  One of these sinkholes swallowed an entire three story building in Guatemala city.  It is as if part of our continent were sinking.  I am just exploring some ideas of course, I have no scientific data on such problems.  Edgar Cayce warned in his readings on numerous occasions that we were headed for the same conclusion as Atlantis if we continued on the path we were on; continuing to disconnect with the planetary energies and disregard the warnings we were being given from the planet herself.

The Earth is our mother, she needs our care and she and all her inhabitants need our nourishment and protection.  This spaceship Earth is our home, there is no other place out there that is presently suitable for us to inhabit.  At least in the dimension that most mere mortals are able to perceive.

© Lorraine Hughes 2013

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Earth Scan by Lorraine Hughes July 2013

Global and Local Clairvoyant Information July 2013

I am going to start writing about Earth Movements and local predictive information on a regular basis instead of my usual antidote-type writing I have been doing in the past.  This information has been coming to me more frequently in dreams and visions and in private sessions with individuals.  I feel responsible to disseminate this information to a wider audience.  Some of the information that follows has been confirmed or repeated itself through my life partner for clarity in his dreams.

Mexico – I received on June 5, 2013 that there would be an Earthquake south of Mexico City and shortly after the volcano Popocatepetal would have a huge eruption, then there would be a much stronger Earthquake in Mexico City (these earth events are somehow energetically connected to each other) and many people would be very sad about massive destruction to historical buildings… many people will lose their lives there.  In the later part of June, 2013 an Earthquake south of Mexico city happened and the volcano Popocatepetal erupted a day later.  So far the massive Mexico city earthquake has not happened, I was told these events were connected and would be the cause of one another.

Toronto – The mayor Rob Ford will not be re-elected or serve another term. There will be a scandal (different from the photo with the crack pipe scandal) around the Ford family.  Specifically I saw that Mayor Ford’s mask would be ripped off (his true identity being revealed) and that he has embezzled or re-routed public monies to his private gain.  There is some kind of sign that came to me about him, profiting financially with money that is not his or its being done illegally.

Ontario and Quebec – An earthquake much stronger that the one felt a month ago who’s epicenter started north of Ottawa.  Very strong earth movements ripping from north to south; East of Toronto, I received that they would also be just east of where I live which is Peterborough, that is the strongest and most intense movements, I am feeling the origin of the epicenter.

Global – This is something both my life partner and I have had visions and dreams about.  Something very violent will erupt within a years time.  Very big and very violent, it is going to affect the global market.  It is something that will make people feel extremely defenseless and vulnerable, alot of fear and stress amongst the worlds citizens will be caused from this event.  For those that are speculating on the stock market alot of money will be lost.

Health – My life partner and I both have received that the common cold (for which there is no cure, its up to our bodies immune systems to fight off) will last longer and be much stronger.  We keep being warned that people will have a false sense of security, possibly reaffirmed by doctors, that they just have a cold.  After having this really long cold that the body has been fighting off; other things can set in like pneumonia, or severe bronchial/breathing difficulties.  The wise thing to do is don’t allow your body to have a prolonged cold.  Grow your own vegetables and eat them, (you are doing good for the Earth and your body), use oil of oregano or bee propolis (immune boosters) as soon as you feel sick.  Try to live a stress-free life.

Check in here regularly as I will be writing monthly or bi-monthly depending on how much new information I receive here at home and when I work abroad.

© Lorraine Hughes 2013

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Spirituality and the Drug Culture

Once again I feel the need to state a disclaimer; “the following is my opinion and how I have been guided in my spiritual practice, please embrace what feels right and leave the rest behind. Thank you.”

For me, what I have received about reaching the heights of spiritual awareness and connection is to be done safely,  it needs to be done without drugs and alcohol.  Receiving a vision while high on DMT (Dimethyltryptamine), or any of the rave drugs; Ecstacy, or K (Ketamine), is not folks a vision but a nightmare.  Recently I watched the documentary DMT: The Spirit Molecule, where supposedly responsible adults (some of them psychotherapists and self-proclaimed “shamans”) claimed taking psychotrophic drugs enhanced their ability to help others, or allowed them to have deeper, more spiritual understandings of life.  I found it interesting how all of the interviewed professionals (some with PHD letters after their names) were unable to articulate exactly how these experiences helped them, or what insights they were given on how to help others or their communities.  Some of these experiences include the latest fad of traveling to Peru or the Amazonian rainforest to partake of the Ayahuasca (the substance taken has DMT in it, mixed with another plant) ceremony.

I had never hear of the Ayahuasca experience until clients started to come to me for energy healing, these clients were majorly unbalanced, so opened up that they could not connect to the planetary energies (were not grounded).  Or their lives took such a major shift when they got back that they were unable for years to reorient themselves (ie. losing job, money, partner, possessions etc…).  I also know of people who have gotten their hands on ancient Egyptian elixirs in order to have visions and enhance psychic abilities.  A client came to me who was taking these elixirs; I repeatedly urged him to incorporate the knowledge coming through him into his art.  This energy can build up and come back to us in unpleasant and difficult to handle ways.  Now the energies are much stronger from the other side, the backlash will be much stronger of stored up or stagnant energy in the future.

I feel sad that so many of our young people are lost, often I feel they are looking for spiritual connection and meaning when they take a drug at a rave or dance club.  I was once a lost young person like that myself, only the drugs or alcohol available were not going to instantly take my life or negatively affect my sense of well being for long periods of time.  Recently I read an article that there is a new Ecstasy drug that is deadlier and comes in a powder form.  Many of these club drugs do long-term damage to the brain or central nervous system.  I just lost a friend recently and I know she struggled with depression which is a side effect of one of the club drugs Ketamine which I know she partook of.  So you can quit the drug but are you really released from its detrimental after affects?

I am putting club drugs and ceremonial plants together in comparison here because I feel if psychotrophic plants are used in the same way as a drug in a rave then whats the difference.  Spiritual knowledge gained must be shared with community or have an end result otherwise your body, soul and spirit will be inhabited by something very negative.  That negative being can convince you that you are “right” in what you are doing!  Also known as the ego factor.

© Lorraine Hughes 2013

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Going Forward Beyond 2013

About six years ago or more, I starting writing for my first website, it was there I wrote about predictions I received from my spiritual guides about world travel in the future, and how our travel would be limited due to fear about the contraction of viruses.  I am seeing more and more information recently which corroborates these earlier articles I wrote on my first website.  Now is the time for humanity to rethink its dependency on Nuclear energy and the Nuclear industry.  We need to speak out on this important issue for future generations.  For our children and their children.

Recently there have been five deaths from a new SARS-like virus originally contracted in the middle east, only 11 people have contracted it and half have died.  The virus is also believed to be spread person to person.  I have attached a link at the end of this article, an article from Reuters, giving a run-down of the discovery of this new virus.  I have also attached an interesting article re: the mutation of disease and other interesting facts regarding the release of low-level radiation into the biosphere.  Remember just two years ago there was a serious nuclear accident in Japan and nuclear tests by North Korea (most recently in 2013), notice the rise of new viruses in the past two years!

This is why I am very passionate about living off the grid, and renewable energy systems.  In future its important to live as much as possible a stress-free existence, and use alternative health modalities, if need be co-current with mainstream medical attention.  Live in harmony with Earth energies, grow your own food!  Be well, take good care of yourselves.

http://www.reuters.com/article/2013/02/13/us-virus-new-idUSBRE91C0OR20130213

http://www.ratical.org/radiation/HoLLR.html

© Lorraine Hughes 2013

 

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Cycles of the Moon

The moon will be full on December 28th, this Thursday. I have promised readers I would post an article summing up how I work with the lunar energies in my own life.  This is common sense advice I know works and can be one of the simplest ways to work with goal setting and align ones life and self with the ebb and flow of the moon.

I am not a professional Astrologer (although I study astrology and do apply it to my own life),  there could be more explained here in regards to where in the sky the moon is full or new and which planets it may be interacting with.  The moon to the trained Astrologer is believed to govern our ever-changing moods and emotional landscape.  You don’t need to know this to work with the moon’s cycles.

We can work more with the ebbs and flows of the moon which affect us deeply and powerfully and why not.  There is no use fighting city hall, I am constantly saying to my partner Jerry who is beginning to understand my odd way of working with the unseen forces that surround us and work on us, perhaps without most of us realizing it.

Simply put, the full moon is an opportune time to let go and the new moon is a effective time to begin or plant a seed.

There are many ways to work with this energy, “be creative”.  Here is a method I use which I have modified and picked up from other like-minded souls along the way.  You do not have to work exactly as I do, just keep in mind the two poles are opposites, one for endings and the other for beginnings.

The full moon can be a time, to pray and reflect, burn objects/journals/letters in a fire that one wants to let go of.  As an example I have at times written an unsent letter when I was having difficulty letting go of a painful relationship.  I outlined everything I learned that was good, what I didn’t like (the good, the bad and the ugly).  In a good way I told the person what I didn’t like about the relationship to but I wrote the letter as if they were there.  I thanked this person and said why I had to move on, I kind of “got it all out on paper”, but tried to wind it up in a good way.  Finally I burned the letter on the full moon and released it, either in the fire or buried it in mother earth.  This letter writing can be for situations and events you want to release from your energy field.  These are powerful ways to move forward from the past and the power of the moon supports this.

During the new moon about twice a year I do a dream board.  I create with stick em stars, yarn, cut up old magazines, write poetry that inspires me, glue or tape this on a clean piece of bristal board (which can be purchased in any art or dollar store).  I dream and imagine my goals and try to illustrate them in a joyful way, what I am trying to bring into manifestation on this planet mother Earth.  For me I try to see the Earth well, see myself doing the work I love to do; where I can bring wellness and peace to many people.  It should illustrate in whatever way you can your personal goals, and of course if those goals benefit others in some way, I think that is helpful too.  I put this dream board up in the Southeast corner of my dwelling where I can see it (in feng shui that is the area of the future) and be reminded of where I am going, what is important to me.  Seeing the dream-board can help focus your energy on a continual basis.

Remember what ever you put out comes back to you ten-fold so its important to do this with joy and peace and for there to be a spirit of gratitude for what has already appeared.  All the very best to you all in the coming year, 2013, the Chinese year of the water Snake!

© Lorraine Hughes 2012

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Menopause and Mothering

I am still in menopause and wondering when will it end?  Most of all the irritability, mood swings and unbelievable grief that dogs my trail somedays.  What I have learned about menopause is it excavates anything you’ve swept under the carpet in the past, going back most of your life to when your menstrual cycle first began.  I think to myself, if only I had honored the wisdom of my beautiful female body and listened to her concerns.  I feel I would be in a better place inside myself right now.  My body won’t let me get away with anything now.  I have to listen to her.  I must give her attention and proper care as I travel the road towards aging and wisdom.

One of the ways I have had to listen and bow down to the menopausal process before it bends me is the nesting phase.  For me anyway because I had so very little safety in my life I’ve had to build comfortable cosy nests for me to be able to be creative.  If I am uncomfortable in any way, I can’t create.  My anger tells me I need lots of alone time to drift and dream. Heal and create myself again.  I have learned that one learns to grow from this powerful transformation and become mother to one’s self and the world at large.

Oh wise women of the Earth, we all need your wisdom and connection right now.  Give yourself the time to cry, mourn your losses, get angry about the injustices on our Mother the Earth.  Yes give yourself the time to drift and dream a new Earth and to help bring in a new female consciousness that is coming to fruition at this time in history.

© Lorraine Hughes 2012

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Fact finding and Mercury retrogrades

I don’t know what it is about the summer and when mercury goes retrograde but I always look forward to my life being thrown up in the air and smashed fabulously to the ground.  In case any of you don’t know, in western astrological thinking; when Mercury (the planet of communication and travel) goes retrograde; spins backwards, it can really turn your life upside down.  This usually happens for about 3 weeks, 3 or sometimes 4 times per year.  My partner and I both have Mercury ruling our ascendants (how you interact with the world) and mid-heaven (one’s vocation in life).  So for us we usually get into heated arguments and misunderstandings, and always seem to plan a trip right smack dab in the middle of one (being the seducers of fate that we are!) ha ha!

Everyone I know who is informed regarding this phenomena dreads the mercury retrograde!  Oh no!  I see fists shaking to the air, blaming poor little Mercury, the winged-footed messenger.

It seems whatever comes up and makes itself known during Mercury’s retrograde periods are things I have been putting off and that I know I need to deal with.  I even find under closer scrutiny that certain themes come up that become important further on down the line, or a course correction happens that allows space for something new to develop in my next steps.

The themes of Mercury retrograde are redo, revisit and rethink.  This summer our well unexpectedly went dry, work opportunities turned up and disappeared, traffic jams and internet communication failed.  All making me look at the importance and preciousness of water, the destruction and renewal of fire (traffic diverted due to wild fire), I have been feeling lately I need to create my own work opportunities and my dependency on the internet; so time to disconnect, go inward, leave the electronics behind.  Alot can be learned from what life gives us, these times are good for fact finding; what to take action on in life.

Lorraine Hughes © 2012

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Tending your Garden

The spiritual revolution continues, people want to become more enlightened or have become so disenchanted with their present life circumstances that they want to experience a deeper sense of what is possible for developing themselves on all levels, emotional, spiritual, physical and mental. Often this is why a person hires or consults with a seer, healer or guru.  They want to fix themselves so they find an expert, but you can’t just throw money at a problem and trust that it will be repaired.  Like tending a garden, there are periods of time where you have to dig in there, get your hands dirty and apply some elbow grease (as my father would say).  You can’t just smell the flowers sometimes you have to “get involved” to reap the rewards.

Remember that life is a mirror, so what gets presented to you (especially those situations or people who irritate or upset us) are your greatest teachers.  What is life showing you about yourself?  Taking time out of our busy schedule for meditation, chanting (repeating mantras in a sacred way) or contemplation can help clarify our vision and still our minds so we can peer more easily into this mirror.  It is important to be humble, realize we don’t know it all and approach life with the mind of a beginner, always.  This also means that we are part of a greater whole; to treat yourself with that respect and kindness is to also respect the greater mystery that we are all a part of.  Its important this understanding is attained with the heart, not only the rational mind.  Any good teacher should open a doorway to your own heart and the holistic mind so that you become more self reliant.  This is part of the hard work that is involved in tending ones garden, providing the bedrock on which your spiritually and potential may flourish.

Finally its important to share what you have learned with others.  To follow up the new paradigm with actions, also called walking your talk.  We can’t keep that new information just for ourselves we must put it out there or we will choke our own garden with the weeds of stagnation and inactivity.

“In the present circumstances, no one can afford to assume that someone else
will solve their problems.  Every individual has a responsibility to help guide our global family in the right direction.  Good wishes are not sufficient; we must become actively engaged.”
— His Holiness the Dalai Lama, from “The Path to Tranquility:  Daily Wisdom”

©  Lorraine Hughes 2012

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Mother Earth you are Beautiful

I have been a city dweller for twenty five years.  Now I am living outside of Toronto, Canada for about four months and witnessing my first spring here.  I feel like a child discovering a new land.  I remember when little, observing nature’s change of seasons on the west coast of Canada, specifically Vancouver Island where giant trees live.  The ants would climb over unopened buds of peonies, tall trees reached toward the sky and blocked out the sun, pansies nodded from the garden.  I observed these rhythms and openings of energy intently.  Nature has always provided a safe cocoon in which to explore my imagination and to navigate difficult times.

Nature has inspired some of the world’s most beloved poets; Walt Whitman, John Keats, Pablo Neruda and in more recent times Mary Oliver.

Heron rises from the dark summer pond

“So heavy,
with its long -necked, long-bodied heron,
always it is a surprise
when her smoke-colored wings

open
and she turns
from the thick water,
from the black sticks

of a summer pond,
and slowly
rises into the air
and is gone.”  (from Mary Oliver’s book of poetry What do we Know)

Mother Earth waits patiently, rises to meet us slowly and take us in her arms to heal us.  With this healing comes inspiration and deliverance from the doldrums, if we allow it.  Sometimes I feel the reason people are so riddled with physical, emotional and mental health problems is they have cut off their connection with Mother Earth.  If we would only allow her in.

Many years ago I was visiting my parents on Vancouver Island; they had recently moved and retired out there and I was in my late thirties at the time.  I was a baby clairvoyant, but I didn’t know it yet; I had not yet started working with people.  I had yet another tumultuous visit with my parents mostly my mother and many memories had been stirred up, especially from my time on the island when very young.  I left my mother at the dock, got on board the ferry to go over to the mainland, and started crying uncontrollably.  I literally could not stop, I looked over the edge of the boat to the sunlight sparkling on the water, how beautiful.  Suddenly a loud and commanding voice from the ocean spoke to me, “She is not your mother, I am your mother!”  Wow!  I still cried all the way to the mainland because I had to to, mourn the loss of a mother I needed but never had.  I had to let go of my neediness toward her and see her as a human being, separate from myself.  It took me a while to “get that”, lesson.

Every time I connect with her “majesty” mother earth, in all her power and magnificence, I reclaim a little of myself; and I am thankful.

Thank you my mother the Earth and thank you Creator for my life.

Lorraine Hughes © 2012

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