I am still in menopause and wondering when will it end? Most of all the irritability, mood swings and unbelievable grief that dogs my trail somedays. What I have learned about menopause is it excavates anything you’ve swept under the carpet in the past, going back most of your life to when your menstrual cycle first began. I think to myself, if only I had honored the wisdom of my beautiful female body and listened to her concerns. I feel I would be in a better place inside myself right now. My body won’t let me get away with anything now. I have to listen to her. I must give her attention and proper care as I travel the road towards aging and wisdom.
One of the ways I have had to listen and bow down to the menopausal process before it bends me is the nesting phase. For me anyway because I had so very little safety in my life I’ve had to build comfortable cosy nests for me to be able to be creative. If I am uncomfortable in any way, I can’t create. My anger tells me I need lots of alone time to drift and dream. Heal and create myself again. I have learned that one learns to grow from this powerful transformation and become mother to one’s self and the world at large.
Oh wise women of the Earth, we all need your wisdom and connection right now. Give yourself the time to cry, mourn your losses, get angry about the injustices on our Mother the Earth. Yes give yourself the time to drift and dream a new Earth and to help bring in a new female consciousness that is coming to fruition at this time in history.
© Lorraine Hughes 2012
